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He leaves this Thursday.

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Well, everything's still falling out underneath me. He has now disappeared to somewhere unknown, does not return calls or emails, and his stuff is still here. I did manage to get an email from him this morning though telling me he'll be back "in a week or two" to get all of his things.

I never thought that this would be my life.

It's complete hell being here in "our" apartment . . with no family or friends anywhere. I'm all alone and feeling very down and depressed.

And no . . I haven't been able to even consider knitting. I'm wondering if I should just shut down this blog.

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Well, I haven't posted in a while. Why? My life is changing right before my eyes and beyond my control.

John has decided that he is done with our relationship and has decided to move out. Unfortunately, trying to reconcile that the person I see before me (since we're still in the apartment together for only a little longer) will not be the person I thought I would spend the rest of my life with is . . well . . let's just say I'm having a hard time accepting and dealing with this.

I have not forgotten my knitting, however, it has been the last priority lately. I have decided to relocate outside of Florida and I will only mention where publicly after I'm moved and settled. Until then, if you wish to talk or ask any details . . feel free to send me an email.

This was inevitable and on a downward trail for a long, long time. But how do you prepare for the end? I guess I've just been in denial.

I hope you are all doing well.

Posted at 6:18 PM | Permalink | Comments (5)

So do you think this will be a knitting blog again anytime soon? ;P Actually, I haven't knit in about two weeks. Somehow I think I'm on a hiatus again . . but it doesn't feel like last time. I simply have not had any time to devote to knitting. It's bothering me quite a bit. I think I may be able to fit it in today though. So, hopefully I can take some pics and post tomorrow . . okay? Good. :)

As for Max . . .

Well, the next day after my last post . . I came home to a kitty that's done about a 120 degree turnaround. No, not a complete 180 . . . but he surprised me. It's almost as if he realized I was thinking of giving him back. He's not totally done being wild . . but he seems to have calmed down quite a bit. I have absolutely NO clue why. What I did decide to do after that day was to give it some more time. And now I'm in the mode of totally loving him . . and giving him tons of kisses and cooing in his ear. He's been purring more and more and he actually gave me my first kiss yesterday!!!! I can't begin to tell you how wonderful that little pink tongue felt! I think he's won his mama over.

He still does get pretty frantic and goes nuts when he plays. I'm taking some good advice that when he bites, I completely take my hands away and either get up or turn away from him. He's now seeing that biting me makes him lose my attention. I'm hoping that eventually he's going to learn this and see that biting me is a bad thing. When he does it I yell, "OW!!!" and then remove myself from his presence. I've watched him out of the corner of my eye and he looks after me like -- "oh no, where are you going???" and then follows soon after to find me. When I pick him up, he lets me scratch him and doesn't bite (right away). I'm realizing that he doesn't love me yet . . or doesn't realize to feel happy around me yet . . therefore . . he doesn't feel bad about being reprimanded. Once he realizes I'm food and cuddles and kisses and love . . . then I think he will respect me enough that when I get mad at him, it's not that I'm being mean but that I'm upset . . and hopefully he won't want to do it.

So . . .

For now, he's staying. :)

I have found a family that would be willing to take him if it turns out that he's just not going to come around entirely. The lady is a cat mom who has two year-old tabby cats of her own. She's looking for a house with her husband, some time by this summer. She has said to let her know if Max is still having difficulties with us and vice versa. But something tells me that I'll be too much in love with him to let him go.

I'm gonna put his cute picture back up now.

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